Support Despair’s Journey to Authentic Self

My name is Despair and I am trans, but I haven’t had any support from my family or friends on this journey. I came out as trans and feeling as a female at the age of 17, but I always knew since I was 5 years old. I suffer from extreme gender dysphoria and social anxiety disorder, but now I have developed more intense phobias like agoraphobia. I am 29 and don’t have a life of happiness at all or any signs that I am thriving. I’ve been in and out of the hospital, seen numerous doctors and psychologists that haven’t done anything for me. I don’t know how much longer I can go on living like the way I am without being able to be my true authentic self in a world full of happiness. When I was born, I didn’t have a penis, but they did a surgical procedure on me to craft me one, which has resulted in me having a deformity. It doesn’t align with my body at all, and growing up, it made me hate myself. Now I have intense body dysmorphia and find many flaws within myself because that wasn’t how I should have been created. I’m simply asking for support, love, and care. The surgical procedures that I need are facial feminization surgery, laser hair removal, breast augmentation, feminization laryngoplasty, buccal fat removal, liposuction, rib cage removal, and vaginoplasty. If you could kindly donate any amount, your donations will make me eternally happy.