Hi there! I am a mental health worker that is going through a bit of a hard time. Ive had a lot of set backs here lately, and I’ve been trying my best to keep my head above water and keep oraying for a betrer day. My brothers told me I should try this, so I decided to try it. I am getting desperate for help, and this is the last resource I have.
My mother died unexpectedly in November, and I had to use my emergency savings to pay for her funeral. I’ve been taking care of her full time for the past 5 years, and I could not work a full time job and take care of her simultaneously. I had a job with my psychology degree for a short two years of that time, but it is hard to perform the jobs my degree has access to due to my medical conditions. These jobs require active CPR certifications, and a lot of the time the ability to restrain or defend yourself.
I have a severe case of hip dysplasia, scoliosis, and advanced osteoarthritis with symptoms of sciatica and neuropathy. My ball and socket is severly deformed and flattened from wear and tear over the years. I have tried disability many times, but I’ve been told I am young and I have a degree, so I do not qualify for recieveing disability. I have 4,000 dollars of credit card debt that has been helped, but I can’t pay the bill to the credit association.
I’ve been going to doctors lately trying to see if my hip can be operated on. So far after the last CT scan, it is looking like there may not be anything they can for me without a large chance of having to get my foot amputated from poor blood circulation.
The medical bills are starting to pile up. I cannot work jobs where I have to stand for over five minutes, and sit for the intense pain of becoming stiff. I’ve put in over 200 applications since December and have had at least five interviews. No one will hire me due to my disability. I have tried selling my art, I have tried doing work for friends and family, I’ve tried cleaning, I’ve tried selling my personal clothes and belongings, I’ve been trying for diasbility again, I’ve been trying anything I can do without pushing my body to the limit. I have ran out of options. My pain is so bad I can’t sleep at night. I’ve lost weight from not being able to eat. And my anxiety is so intense, my hair falls out in bundles.
I don’t have a lot of help from my family. They are trying to make it the best they can to get by with their own bills. I don’t know what else to do. I just need help for tight now until the doctor can tell me he can or can’t perform the surgery. If I can have the surgery and be healed, I can’t wait to go back to work after my year of healing. I don’t want to be disabled. I want to be free and work a normal job like everyone else.
I do not know yet of i will be able to go back to work. But, I will say this. If you can help me any way you can, I’m going to help my community just as much when I get back on my feet.
I want to start a homeless shelter in my town that allows people to come in, cook themselves a meal, watch tv, make friends, and feel like they are at home with warm beds to sleep in. I want to give my dad money to be able to live comfortably and live pit his years without stress and worry. I want to help out my two best friends that have helped me cook, clean, and shower when i could not even hold my head up from the pain during my illness. I am going to continue donating to St. Jude every month just like my mama did when she was alive. I am going to give all my stray kitties a beautiful catio to have somewhere to go in the winter and the heat of the summer. I’m going to save the 3,000 dollars to finally get my mama a headstone with a vase to finally make her a boquet of flowers. I am going to donate my art to fundraisers to help people just like me.
So, even if you cannot donate anything, that is fine. Thank you for just reading my story. I have been praying for the strength to keep my faith and keep waking up everyday. Thank you for helping me feel like I still have a purpose.
